Psalm 139:23-24 (New International Version)

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 139:23-24 (The Message)

23-24 Investigate my life, O God,
find out everything about me;
Cross-examine and test me,
get a clear picture of what I'm about;
See for yourself whether I've done anything wrong—
then guide me on the road to eternal life.

I'm going to have to mediate on these verses for a while. I doubt right now even my God. I want to love him so much more than I do right now. I don't want to love him out of guilt, regret, or pain, but out of passion, desire, and great respect! I have to renew my mind today. It is so hard to do. God help me today! Help me to accomplish things at work and get beyond this addiction. Help me!!! I can't do this on my own. I am weak!